Assalamualaikum, good day dearest... Thought it wan't much a good day for me. Nope, actually it is week. Yeah, a very bad week that put a toll on my mind.

Maybe, it was the anxiety for the result of rayuan UPU, maybe, it was just my hormone acting up, maybe it was just me. But yeah, I am doing fine. I am anxious all week. And yesterday was the worse breakdown I had ever had in my life. 

I still haven't break the news of my another failure to my mom. Yes, another fail. Right after I checked the result, I tear up a little. I kind of see that coming but still, the reality hurts. I think T won't have another breakdown but last night, when it was time to sleep, I suddenly just couldn't breathe. I just keep on crying, crying and crying, in silence. I couldn't stop myself no matter how much I tried. 

I know and I am aware that I need to talk to someone but there's no one. I don't want to talk to my mom because I know will said nothing. I don't want to talk to my siblings for a tiny little issue, besides they wouldn't understand anyway. The only thing they could have said was, 'kau keje ajelah'. Friends? They had another problem to think of. Luckily there was this one friend of my mine back from my diploma years remembered me and asked for my well-being. Thanks Cunae for last night. Even though it was nothing big, it still is meaningful for me.

Am I fine now? No. Not yet. When will I be fine? I don't know. I am hanged up with the idea to continue my study as that is my wish for the longest time. It was also the only thing that I am good at. I am that plain girl who good and nothing but studying. And not doing what I am good at kind of drove me crazy. I doesn't know what should I do now. I just wanted to stop being a burden to everyone. But how?

I should stop now or else there will be another tears day. You know what, last week, whenever I opened up Twitter, I feels like every tweet that I saw first was like an advanced consolation for me. Most of them were from influencer's account (Mufti Menk, Mizi Wahid, Teme and some others). There was a tweet (doesn't remember the account) that said something along, 'Kita tak boleh paksa Allah untuk tunaikan doa kita'. And that, somehow, just stick to my mind. 

-thes

"I'm your husband"

Semuanya bermula dengan pengakuan itu. Aku tiba-tiba menjadi isteri kepada Gibran Lutfi, lelaki yang tidak pernah aku kenal seumur hidup aku. Kata mereka, kami pasangan pencinta sejati. Sanggup mempertaruhkan nyawa demi satu sama lain. Kegilaan apa ini? Aku cuma ada tunang. Dan tunang itu bukanlah seorang Gibran Lutfi.

"Ara kehilangan memori empat tahun ini."

Hilang ingatan? Drama apa yang sedang mereka main? Aku tidak percaya! Tetapi sayang, itulah hakikatnya. Aku tidak ingat apa yang berlaku sejak empat tahun yang lalu. Kata mereka lagi, semuanya gara-gara sebuah kemalangan.

Namun...

Benarkah ada kemalangan berlaku? Kenapa aku seringkali dihantui mimpi-mimpi menakutkan? Kenapa aku seringkali mendengar suara-suara aneh? Dan juga, kenapa aku selalu nampak dia berlumuran dengan darah? 

"Aku nak kau mati." - DIA

"Darah dibayar dengan darah. Nyawa dibayar dengan nyawa." - GIBRAN

Semakin aku cari kebenarran, semakin aku buntu. Apatah lagi, bila hati mula berdetak aneh. Melihat lelaki itu sahaja, sudah mampu membuatkan aku tersenyum sendiri.

"How do you feel?"

"Macam orang kena kahwin paksa."

"Then you will fall for me."

"Huh?"

"Dalam drama kahwin paksa, hero-heroin selalu ended up jatuh cinta dan live happily ever after, kan?"

Mampukah kami betul-betul live happily ever after, bila aku dikelilingi rahsia demi rahsia? Pembohongan demi pembohongan? Kata Gibran, demi melindungi aku. Tetapi daripada siapa? Apa yang sudah berlaku dalam empat tahun ini? Dan kenapa pula, ada tangan yang mahu mencabut nyawaku?

Assalamualaikum, good day dearest ! This banner is so cute (sorry, I've to say this !)! Let's join Tiara on her segment. The rules are simple and can be easily complied. This segment will end on 30th September at 11.59 pm.

-thes

-thes

Assalamualaikum, good day dearest ! I'm joining this wonderful giveaway hosted  by Abam Kie. Since I didn't but anything from the 9/9 sale, I might as well try my luck on this GA. Best of luck to all participants !

-thes

 Assalamualaikum, good day dearest ! Since I missed to post on the independence day, I think this would make up for it.

edited on canva.com

First, I would like to apologize for the poster because there wasn't much of Sarawakian and Sabahan that I could describe in form of the people. I used the application Canva to edit this poster. Hence, I don't edit the little details as I was just used what was available. 

Back to our topic, do you guys know why we celebrate two different day in regards to our nation? Well, The Independence Day which we celebrates every 31st of August is the day we were declared as an independence and sovereign nation and Malaysia Day is the day where we celebrate the establishment of Malaysian federation, including Malaya, Sabah, Sarawak and Singapore into one nation. But in the year of 1965 Singapore separates from Malaysia to become its own nation due to political and economic differences. We celebrates Malaysian Day on 16th September every year.

In this opportunity, I would love to say a happy holiday to my fellow Malaysian and may you have a happy day !

-thes

Akid Aslan. Bukan hanya nama, karakternya juga persis singa. Dominan dan bengis. Daneen Medina. Kuat memberontak dan suka melawan.

Mereka tak pernah kenal rapat. Jumpa punya hanya sesekali, bercakap hanya sepatah dua. Tapi tiba-tiba harus menjadi suami isteri. Hanya kerana Gibb, Daneen turutkan.

"You stay here. Do whatever you want. But only in this room." - Aslan

Sikap terlebih melindungi Aslan buat Daneen curiga. Beberapa insiden berlaku selepas status Mrs Aslan dipegang. Daneen tahu ada yang tak kena, ada yang Aslan rahsiakan. Tapi, apa?

"I trusted you, Aslan. I pilih untuk percayakan you. Kenapa you buat I macam ni?"- Daneen

Kebenaran yang terbongkar melukakan Daneen. Aslan berjanji mahu betulkan keadaan. Namun, kesalahan Aslan terlalu besar. Terlalu payah mahu dilupakan.

"Daneen patut tahu semua ni, Aslan!" - Sarah

"Itu bukan urusan you, Sarah! I've warned you. Bila you libatkan Daneen, bermakna you sengaja cari pasal dengan I!" - Aslan

Aslan sanggup mati demi Daneen.

Aslan sanggup lepaskan segalanya untuk Daneen.

Adakah itu cukup untuk menebus apa yang telah Aslan lakukan? Dan adakah pengorbanan Daneen terhadap Gibb itu berbaloi?

Diculik, dikurung dan diseksa oleh si bongkok kerana ingin melihat orang-orang seksaannya menderita seperti orang yang dicintainya sebelum ini. Antara yang menanggung akibat adalah Rayyan Firdaus, Hanna Hannani dan beberapa orang lagi rakan mereka.

Dan ini pula antara kata-kata dendam orang yang dicintai si bongkok...

"Kau orang berdua nak tahu tak apa yang aku letak dalam keranda tu? Aku letak lipan. Aku letak kala jengking!"

"Ala, tak payahlah nak merayu-rayu. Hati aku ni takkan cair dengan rayuan kau. Kau dan seorang lagi betina kat atas tu akan mati sebelum matahari terbit. Ada faham?"

Berselindung di sebalik satu nama yang tidak diketahui identiti sebenarnya. Dan penculikan ini terus menimbulkan tanda tanya dalam minda setiap mangsa yang terlibat.

Sementara itu, kembali ke waktu 10 tahun yang lalu... Seorang gadis obesiti sering dijadikan bahan ketawa kerana tubuh badannya. Seterusnya, berlaku pula satu peristiwa hitam di sebatang sungai telah merubah takdir hidup si gadis obesiti!

Lucu sangatkah bentuk fizikalnya sehingga teruk si gadis obesiti dibuli? Dan siapakah gadis obesiti ini?

"Bulat macam belon tu kau kata comel? Kalau dia himpit, mahu penyek badan kau!" - RAZMAN

"Eh, tak payahlah. Nanti tak cukup pula bihun goreng itu. Kau kan kuat makan!" - BAIZURA

"Kenapa kau orang ni asyik nak membuli dia aje, hah?" - MAIZATUL AKMA

Menghina fizikal si gadis obesiti tanpa belas, padah menanti mereka! Satu demi satu 

menjadi mangsa. Diseksa dengan kejam oleh si pemberi hukuman bagai menjadi satu kewajipan. Si penghukum semakin rakus menjalankan tugasnya dengan profesional.

Siapakah inidividu sadis dan psiko yang memberi hukuman? Siapakah pula si bongkok? Bagaimanakah dengan nasib gadis obesiti? Siapa dalang sebenar yang terlalu psiko ini? Ada kaitankah peristiwa kejam lagi berdarah ini dengan ketiga-tiga mereka? Rasailah pergolakan perasaan yang sarat dendam, saspens dan pertelingkahan dalam Psiko tulisan Rosa Nur ini.